Today is Thursday, December 06, 2012. I didn’t go to school today and I won’t be back to school until Monday. Many people want to know the truth about what is going on… if you really want to know then keep reading… most of what you are hearing is true. Yes, there are pictures of my on the internet. Yes they are real. Yes I went to the police last night. No I’m not a whore. No I didn’t put them on the internet in purpose… after all of this though, I feel like it is in a way a good thing that this happened. Not that I am happy that I have been exposed to the entire world. But now I know who my REAL friends are. I have learned that nothing can hurt me anymore… since sixth grade I have been made fun of and sexually harassed. In sixth grade I was called a whore for the first time. Since then it has only gotten worse. My mom used to tell me “Everyone gets bullied, just brush it off.” And I did. For more than 3 years, that’s what I have done. I brushed it off, but I never let it go. I let all of build up inside of me for so long. I let it build up inside for so long that I just started to shut down. I was slowly dying on the inside. But on the outside, I was smiling like nothing was wrong. Not even my closest “friends” knew I was depressed. But now that everyone knows I feel like a HUGE WEIGHT has been lifted of shoulder. I honestly couldn’t be happier than I am right now. I have been smiling and laughing all day. I have completely forgotten about all of this. I just let it escape from my mind. I am no longer depressed. l feel like nothing can hurt me anymore. Earlier this week I wanted to kill myself. Just yesterday I wanted to kill myself. I wanted to do whatever I could to get away from it all. Rather it was killing myself or just running away. I was to the point where everyone was out to get me and I felt completely useless. But that was then and this is now…. I’m actually happy again. I haven’t felt like this in a very long time.
What happened
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The big bpd words
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A f*ck-up..
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trying to bury it deep.
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So sad
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lost
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