well here gos nothing,over the pst few years so many things have happened to me i jsut dont know what to do anymore !et started with me having back surgey that left me unable to work anymore and then i found out that i have fibommagi(which hurts everyday as well) then on jusly 7,2007 i lost my only sibling very fast with no warning!! my big brother he was only 43 i have my mom and dad but to see the pain hurt and disapointment in there faces is so hard to do so i try not to go around but then again i have no one that understand the lonelyness would be soooo hard of losing your only brother my only sibling peroid!! so know iam am all alone! i have great husband but he works for many hours so hes not connected to our familylife anymore which and when i say anything he always stells me iam OK but i do not feel ok i feel empty lonely and lost! i use to be on the go always getting things done from painting the house to yard work to cooking dinner that has all stoped hell i can t even take a shower everyday anymore and i use to take 2 atime no days go by without one! why bother no one comes around and i just sit and watch tv all day!!ive tryed going to counciling but u have to go put get dresses all that and i just dont have the drive anymore and thats the worst that my drive is gone i can not even get motavated todo anything anymore whatis wrong woth PLEASE someone i feel sooooo sooo empty like i have nothing left to make me happy to make me push on!! so i am tring thi well write later -bye