I am so wide awake right now. I should definitley be asleep. I am going to have to force myself to take my medicine and go to bed soon. Back in June I switched from a 10 am work day to a 6 am work day. I've adjusted better than I thought I would; I really didn't think I could do it. But I'm still struggling with it. When I have to work the next day I make sure I'm in bed early enough to get at least 4 and 1/2 -5 hours sleep. Which really isn't enough but somehow it's enough when your sort of hypomanic. When I don't have to work the next day I LOVE to stay up. I am such a late night person. This shift definitley is not for me. But, it's what I have to do. Thankfully I don't have to work tomorrow – if I did I wouldnt' still be up. I know though that with depression or Bipolar Disorder, like I have, keeping a regular steady sleep schedule is very important. My logical sense tells me to go to bed and wake up the same time everyday no matter what I have to do. However, why would I want to go to bed early if I didn't have anything to do the next day? Why would I want to get up at 4:30 or 5 am if I didn't have to be to work? I need to get a better handle on this. Switching back and forth between hypomania and depression is hard enough on it's own. I really don't need to make it any harder by messing with my sleep cycle and throwing myself into episodes. There is no way I am getting up at 4:30 or 5 am if I don't have to work but, I suppose I could go to bed at a somewhat decent hour. I know if I take my medicine I'll be asleep soon. It's just hard when I don't feel like sleeping. Now, I'm going to go to church in the early afternoon. ( Catholic – Holy Day of Obligation) so I need to get to sleep. I can't sleep away half of the day to make up for staying up late. So I guess I'll force feed myself my medicine. At least I am fortunate enough to have something that I know will let me get some sleep. Alright going to go do that now.
Wide Awake but Need to Sleep
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I completely agree with what you're saying about the sleep issues messing with the bipolar cycles! I'm the same way, and unfortunately I LOVE to be up at night ~ it's when I feel my best and most creative and productive (at least during a hypomanic phase). But I also know that not getting enough sleep causes me to shift from one cycle to another, never into the neutral zone. I hope things do get better for you with this. Being bipolar IS hard enough with the constant cycling and emotional rollercoaster. To be blunt~ it sucks, lol.