I pulled away to face the pain as I close my eyes and drift away. Chained to the fear of never finding a way to heal my soul, I find I can't go on living this way. It seems I've denied it for so long and now I must make time to say good bye, for I can no longer hold on to this life. Though my heart is broken, I hope you sleep well, my angel. For one day, I will be released from sorrow's hold. As I am left with only time for hope's last breath, I will bleed this empty heart ofall that longs to die. While I lay to rest, the dreams that take the pain away, I am left with only your ghost to comfort me in this darkness. As my memories fade and light is lost within me, they spill over everything I see. I found a world where love, dreams, and darkness all collide for us but it fades into the silence. I am left wondering why I feel this way, while all my life with you passes before my eyes. Soon all the chains to this life will break, and I will find forsaken peace inside. The air around me has become a cage where love resembles rage as I could not face a life without your light. Never had a voice to protest and all my flaws became open season, for this I gave up trying as I will never live down this deceit. I knew something was wrong when I found we couldn't hold on, being torn apart until it's all gone. I find myself believing in something so distant as I try to make you promises just to let you down. I realize I have nothing left while we've fallen all this time and I am left with a cruel wanting. Shadows of you take it all away, as something here, once beautiful, now dies under the ash of what I now call home. I will run towards the end, dancing on a wire, trying to make my way to you as I make my final stand. I know in the end we will be together again, someday.
Wrote on 5/6 edited on 5/14
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"I am left wondering why I feel this way, while all my life with you passes before my eyes. Soon all the chains to this life will break, and I will find forsaken peace inside."
Never let hope die, my friend. Be safe!