So we went to Mayhem Fest, holy shit yes! Fucking awsome once Mastadon was done, I've never really listened to them honestly and was not impressed live. On the other hand Dragonforce who i'm not a huge fan of I thought was amazing live. Disturbed was jaw dropping to put blantently, absotluly astounding and just over all fucking awsome. Slipknot was very good but by the time they got on stage everyone was either exhausted from all the jumping and moving with Disturbed or were passed out from beer or something. Slipknot tends to be a double edged sword, they put on a better show if the crowd puts on a better show. The more the crowd screams and chants, sings along and jumps the better slipknot plays. So when they show up at the end and everyones damn near catatonic it kind kills their power but none the less I was happy to see Corey that up close, probably the closest I'll ever get to getting to meet him. Fact is I guess you could call him my hero, but that sounds childish. I think a better way to put it is I feel a strange connection to him, not like linked souls but something else, like if I put myself in his position I would do everything exactly the same way. I could go on but listening to myself go over it in my head I realize I sound like some adolescent with no father figure just grasping onto whoever I can, what it comes down to is this… when i was younger I had multiple run ins with depression and truly looked at suicide as a option a many of those times… having someone there that was saying what I was helped a lot. It saved me having someone that I could scream with and sing with to vent my frustrations and to just… I'm rambling again. Corey, as childish as this may sound I believe I do owe you my survival in this world. My problem was never feeling alone, I prefer that. My issue was feeling like I was the only person intelligent enough to notice all the issues with the everyday shit we call human, it gave me a kind of solace knowing i wasn't the only one, a haven within myself i could turn to. I'm sure I sound like every other raving lunatic out there though so dismiss what i'm rambling about… Until next time freaks.