I’m supposed to be taking the GRE’s soon. I took a practice one..and did terrible. I got 11 math questions right out of 30…I was so upset by that. I try studying but I get so overwhelemed and I feel so stupid when I look at some of the stuff…My boyfriend has his Master’s Degree in Physics and I was telling him abuot how upset I am. We started talking about stuff and I was telling him my downfalls in math. I told him I can’t add or multiply fractions…he thought I was joking. He made a smart comment and it really hurt my feelings. He quickly realized I was joking any more and started telling me how smart I am and how I just don’t need to know those things anyway because it’s not part of my major. I still felt really stupid and embarassed. I almost started crying…Later that night I told him I think I’m depressed (think being a little loose of a term). He didn’t understand why. He says I worry about things I don’t need to. Which is completley true. He didn’t want to talk about it at all though…He even got off the phone. Then for some reason last night I had a dream about the guy who raped me. It’s been a few years since the rape. I really don’t think about it that much any more..It was just so weird because I woke up in my dream with him next to me in bed. My heart started racing and I was so afraid. Apparently in my dream I was dating him though. I felt so dirty when I woke up. I don’t know why I would dream such a thing…It’s rather disturbing. Maybe I just can’t let it go….Every time I really feel like I’m totally over it something like this happens
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Difficult People
Mcksnug, , Depression, Addiction, Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Personality Disorder, Suicide, 2
I have to write a blog because I don't know who to turn to. I would like some advice...
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Wednesday, December 4, 2013
JustHer, , Depression, Therapist, 0
On December 4, 2013, Today has been a mixture of both good and bad. I was getting ready for...
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Vent
Picku332, , Anxiety, Depression, LGBT, Grief, Lesbian, Gay, LGBTQ, Relationships, Sex Therapy, 1
Hello. I haven’t been on for a couple of months, mostly because I’ve been on summer break and my...
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I CAN EAT AGAIN ! ! ! ! !
virus, , Depression, Depression, Obesity, Weight Loss, 1
MMMM-boy!! That was good!! I just finished my double cheeseburger with no pickles and extra mustard. I almost forgot...
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Facebook & Myspace…
lag823, , Depression, Anger, Child, Depression, 0
I do have a Facebook & Myspace page, but I really don't like those sites. People on them are...
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Concerta
redhead20, , Depression, Medication, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, Stress, 0
up late by myself, alone and scared of my own inactivity. i don’t want to see anyone anymore, people...
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Sadness during a happy time
Silent_Sigh, , Depression, Depression, Relationships, 0
I just found out via Facebook that one of my best friends is engaged. Well, I say best friend...
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Blog #4
queenofnowhere, , Depression, Depression, Domestic Abuse, Relationships, Weight Loss, 0
November 20th, 8:10 pm It’s been hell. Ever since Friday everything has been going down hill. My diet has...
Yeah..I do have PTSD..It sucks. My boyfriend is so supportive..It’s just so hard for me to talk about it. Sometimes I feel like I’m annoying him or he’s tired of listening to it…I think it may all be in my head…I dunno..It’s a hard subject to bring up anyway