Welp, guess I'm bored…I haven't really shared a blog here in sometime, I mostly like to read what other people write, I've been circling between anxietytribe and depressiontribe for about 6-7 years…I used to write a lot but I got an overwhelming amount of no connection that I just stopped sharing so much…also I realized I was just beating a dead horse into the ground expressing my depression all the time…I read all my blogs and it just got me sad…obviously I felt I needed to write, it was a way to vent but at the same time it taught me that it doesn't have to mean anything to anyone. So over time I tried expressing myself in different ways, expressing my thoughts on all types of topics and for the most part it felt satisfying but even that had its flaws, there's different reasons for writing anything at all and its interesting to look back overtime and see where you were in your mind at a particular time, what you were feeling? how far have you grown since? was there a point to all the banter?….and there's pros and cons but I was either sad, bored or angry, I was rarely happy!…and that's what bothered me, I would rant like a mad man about the same things over and over and over!…and eventually I saw the habit and weighed if it was healthy and I just started to experiment with new ways to find peace….which lead me to be more quite and I cant say my depression is better, I still struggle constantly but I have a better grip I suppose…just every so often I feel to write down what I'm thinking and I like to share sometimes…before I even start writing I have this feeling of why? what does it matter?..if people cared how would I know? and would I believe them?…I'm afraid to connect…it feels odd to even try…feels like I'll look back at these words and delete them like i do most blogs. I Just feel empty…writing doesnt seem to do anything but occupy my mind for a brief period of time…it becomes this visible reminder of a decision i made to express myself once…and what real worth is that? yet I still do it…lol
I'm messed up…
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Day 1
jquail3, , Depression, Anxiety, Depression, Sleep Disorders, 0
Hi everyone, or anyone for that matter since this is my first post and I'm not really sure how...
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WHO IS REALLY CRAZY?
twilliams, , Depression, 0
HI! I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT I AM FEELING ANYMORE. I FEEL THAT I AM TOTALLY SANE, BUT THEN...
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Letter to K–my second cousin
TessErin, , Depression, Therapist, 0
This is a letter to my second-cousin, K. I wish I could send it to her but there is...
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Love Lies
DemonicConstellation1221, , Depression, Questions, Relationships, 2
They say people touch your heart, But never speak of how they tear it apart, never of how love...
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I don't know where to go, what to do next.
minimalist, , Depression, Domestic Abuse, OCD, Relationships, Religion, Therapy, Weight Loss, 0
Yeah, well, I jumped the gun or something. I was told she was in hospice care, on morphine, getting...
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The struggles of my life.
ColdHeart2350, , Anxiety, Depression, LGBT, Teens, Anxiety, Depression, Grief, Personality Disorder, Self Esteem, Suicide, 1
Aight, I’m back. How y’all been since my last? I know, it was hella long, but so is my—...
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Pissed off
stressed247, , Depression, Addiction, Obesity, Weight Loss, 1
this fucking weekend. i dont know what else to say. I’m supersensitive about my weight, due to my parents...
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Not so good of a day
sadjac, , Depression, Addiction, Stress, 0
Not so good of a day. Went out drinking again instead of class. Didn’t ring the alcohol councellors that...