I’m sitting here with my thought whirling more than usual once again. I just got off of the phone with my Mother after having a bit of a freak out and finally in the heat of frenzy explaining to her with the best of my ablility what it’s like to have this thing. I said, some people are afraid of hights, so they just don’t climb a mounatin or go up a ladder, some people don’t like flying, so they don’t go away anywhere far. I can’t avid what I fear, sickeness and sick people, no matter where I go and what I do I will forever at one point or an other be faced with this issue head on. My roommate is sick and I think that this time I’m really not making it up in my head. I tried to relax myself and find out the facts from her, like is she going to get her peroid/stress (because when she gets bent out of shape she throws up, which is excatly what I am afraid of), but she seems pretty sick to me.
Gid, why can’t I just get over/away from this. My Mother proceded to almost yell at me, I don’t understand….this is my fault….if I had though more postivly and been in a better mood when you were a child this could have been avoided….I knew I never sent you away to school….etc. To which I responded, you could have been in a state of glee my whole childhood and it wouldn’t have made one bit of a difference. This is the way that my brain is made, it’s my chemical make-up and nothing I can do/you can do will change that fact. That is the thing that truly scares me the most, is that it will never change and it will be the monkey on my back that I will have to deal with in one way or an other for the rest of my life. I hate being this way sometimes.
Related Articles
-
UK TV Programme
fali, , OCD, Hoarding, 0
Hi guys for people in the UK there is a programme on bbc 1 tonight at 10:35 called 'my...
-
Would like some friends, please
lislis, , OCD, OCD, 2
Could someone write to me, comment the blog, or send a comment. Tell me something fun in your life, even...
-
A lifetime of counting
ElizabethMinette, , OCD, OCD, 1
sorry for my speeling mistakes i have a reading disorder which makes spelling right hard. at the age of...
-
OCD, Depression, and my girlfriend
Xeneize, , OCD, Anger, Anxiety, Depression, Medication, OCD, Questions, Relationships, Sex Therapy, Sleep Disorders, Suicide, Therapist, 2
When I was a small kid I started to have fears that my family was going to die. I'm...
-
It’s gotta be at least 95 outside
tlh131192, , OCD, Therapist, 0
So, the topic of this blog is going to rapidly change a few times because I have many things...
-
None
Donnie_Brasco_9, , OCD, Anxiety, Child, Depression, Medication, Sleep Disorders, Therapist, 0
Hi everyone, First I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for taking the...
-
-
Betrayed
SeekingHappiness, , OCD, Anger, Anxiety, Depression, OCD, Therapist, 3
I am really upset right now. I opened up to a friend, telling her about my ocd and obsessions...
0 Comments