I worry about everything. There's not a time when I don't worry. (Aside from when I'm intoxiated and I would never promote that and I would never drink to 'cure' it).
Even right now, on this board. I made myself an online name so that I wouldn't feel bad or concerned if people here judged me – but I still actually do! I worry about some people here, too. I just want to help people but hows that possible when I can't help myself?!
I worry for my Dad who is evidently suffering a midlife crises at 47. I worry about money. We have enough of it and yet I obsess over losing it. I worry over my boyfriend's permanent residency and I worry about returning to the hellish job which is seasonal. I worry about obtaining a new job because I don't want to fail and have people judge me or feel the bitter sting of getting fired which has happened a few times before. I worry about conversations, and maintaining friendships.
I'm never focussed because there's always something to worry about and something that needs to be done.
The job thing coming up is really stressing me out – last year, some girls got really hurtful with me, and even my boss yelled at me! He even said something really stupid to me this year a week ago when I seen him at the office. He's like "You always make me feel awkward. I have to watch what I say around you or else you'll freak out!" Which is basically him repeating what the other girls told him – even though the others girls bullied me and made my job more difficult because "you know how she is". Man, I don't even remember doing anything to anyone or saying anything! One girl quit because she thought I was out to get her – (I think she was mad cause I got 'promoted' and not her'.)
What can I do? I just do not want to worry anymore. I want to think positively; ie UNDERSTAND THAT THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND ME. I want to stop caring what strangers think about me and if people are going to talk about me.
There's never a time when my belly doesn't ache and my head doesn't hurt.
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I'd love to have a resonable amount of anxiety. It's good to have some. But not what I have…
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The only thing you should care about is yourself. To hell with what other people think. Your true friends stick by you through thick and thin. Also remember you could get ulcers from all that worrying. I know its hard because I have a problem at work I try to much because I dont want the boss to think less of me I also am trying to please him. My son advises me to have "Dont give a shit" attitude but I can not. I think that is what is part of my problem
I know its hard and believe me I know but just take baby steps. Just try to stop worrying abt one thing for a while and see how that goes
Good Luck