Felt overwhelmed this morning after learning about a debt I did not know I owed. I decided not to let it rule or ruin my day. I set up small, visible tasks to complete so that I could feel more organized and accomplished. Now that I have a cleaner workspace, I can take a look at the debt and figure out how to approach finding a solution. Then, I learned of a loved one who had a medical emergency in another state and is now hospitalized. There is nothing I can do except pray and offer emotional support. I reached out. There will come a time when there will be more illness and hospitalization for my older family members, so I have to prepare myself for these inevitabilities. My inclination is to “run and rescue,” but that’s not good for me, and ultimately not good for my family members. I’ll do what I can when I can. In the meantime, I really am a little freaked out about the debt and lack of adequate income in general. It helps to know that others are in the same boat, and we will survive somehow. It helps to pray. I would like to pray on a schedule instead of praying only when I feel worried. I put my mood today as “not bad for having extreme financial worries and a loved one who is not doing well right now.” I’m proud of myself for remaining calm all day today. It’s not easy, and some days are better or worse than others. But today, I feel like I have a handle on my moods and my life. I’ll keep this note as a reminder that I made it through the day with mild anxiety and only 1 major wave this a.m.