We me went I was 18, I thought I was in love. I was on cloud nine. After 9 years and 6 kids I realized I was worth loves time. I’m not worth anyone’s time. For the last few months I’ve been reminded that “I’m not the one” I even hear “eww” in passing. I was told I have not ambition no pride and that the love of my life has moved on. I cant provide the normalcy he is looking for. I’ve been in mommy mode since I was 18. I don’t know how to be normal. I know how to be a mom. In turn his reply was “I’ve been tolerating you because of the kids” I’m crushed. My youth is gone, I have no friends (wasn’t allowed) , my family stop calling years ago because Mr.Aggression thought my family were trying to separate us. I am alone and overwhelmed. Who is going to love me now? What do I have to look forward to? I’ve endured physical, emotional and financial abuse. I’m broke I give up. Why am I not worthy? What makes me unlovable. My mom doesn’t talk to me my grandmother used the word “hate” and a few other colorful words to describe me and my kids,my dad….absent. my siblings have their own lives and families they are all so happy I want to feel happiness too. I want to be loved
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Lost and Loss of Trust
sadviolinist, , Depression, Relationships, Sex Therapy, Stress, Therapy, Weight Loss, 2
I'm stressed and upset. I just had a 90 minute conversation with my best friend. I haven't seen her...
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Hi everyone It’s been a while since I wrote a blog last, and thought I should do one as...
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~No More~
diamond5rnt4every1, , Depression, 0
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Welcome to my profile
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I want to be something. I don't entirely understand my need to write things down. But one thing I...
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Why I hate people (Example) and myself
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So continuation of the whole supervisor thing. My second supervisor returned and is still very sick. So he called...
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AwesomePuppy18, , Anxiety, Depression, 0
So I’ve had a really bad day but I was fine. Then in Math(my last class) I had to...
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Progress
FearsWithin, , Anxiety, Anxiety, Career, Forgiveness, Stress, Weight Loss, 0
I had my first day at my new job on Tuesday and it went well, i dont really like...
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Does It Happen to Everyone?
bthere4mi, , Depression, 0
So I come home and my dad asks me how my day was. I tell him it was fantastic…(sarcasm)...