Its been a difficult year..i think i'll let the poem say the rest…please comment and tell me what you think….? would love to hear from you <3
I long to tell you everything
but my barrier stops me
So I cover it up with a lie
No matter how hard I try
it's more than being brave
it's something I crave
it's like a secret deep inside,
it's something I must do
the voice inside my head tells me to
You visited me in hospital that time.
I heard you calling.
My heart sank with fear
I didn't want you to see me in here
In this state
So full of all this hate
I never wanted you to blame yourself
I just wanted you to love me,
To hug me tightly,
To catch me when I fall.
Mother you are my all.
I want to be good, i want to be pure
For this life I endure
Its sad there's no magic cure.
Typing each and every letter
Trying to imagine things getting better
I Try To Obey What The Doctors Say
I Want To Stop Feeling This Way
I saw my doctor the other day
she had something important to say
This problem in my head
Could one day leave me dead.
I'm worried one day it will be too late
Maybe it was deemed to be fate