Where to begin, back in 2003 I had a motorcycle accident that left me with severe back and leg pain and weakness in my legs. I was prescribed oxy (10/325 , 4x per day). This eased the pain and I could work and play and live my life. Well, now it's 2016 and I have finally made the decisioin to get off this crap. Currently, I'm taking between 10-20 pills per day ( yes I know what your thinking, how is this guy not dead). I am currently taking about 400 pills a month ( you have to admit that's a lot even by rock star standards. Kieth Richards got nothing on me!). Well that's the funny part, here's the not so funny part. It took me till know to realize I'm a friggen drug addict. After I chewed down my doctor supplied 120 pills at 10/325 script ( this would generally take me about a week at the most to plow through). I would then contact a buddy who would hook me up with another 220 pills for the month at the hefty price of $1100 per month ( luckily I have a good job and a side business that were my source of revenue, can't wait to see the wifes reaction on that one). Now your probably saying that's only 340 pills and your right, the remainder came from my parents scripts that I had been siphoning off for years. Yes, I know your thinking what an A-hole for taking his parents meds, and you know what your right, but it's that constant need for a fix that drives all of this behavior. If you are reading this, I want you to know that this is the first time I've ever posted anything online. The reason I'm writing this is to hopefully help someone else who may feel the same way. I'm ashamed of my behavior to get the pills, it wasn't until I called a close friend of mine to get a fix of some of his pills because I had run out —again ! When I picked up the meds he had a talk with me on how concerned he was for me, and not wanting to see me dead like a couple of his close friends and neighbors. I told him I was fine and no need to worry. As I was driving home, I couldn't get out of my head the talk we had just had ( Thanks Rick). It was at this point where I said that's it. I'm tired of that feeling of having to take pills in the morning to get moving and pills in the afternoon to make it through the end of the day. If you have this feeling…guess what… your addicted! First off it took me a little bit to realize that my doctor should never had let me be on this crap for this long. But, It's also completely and totally my fault for taking as many as I have been. As I'm on day one of a cold turkey detox, I will say that it is my obligation to my family and friends to do this and not quit!. So, night number 1, yeah it sucked. Think I slept a total of about 4 hours, constantly getting up to pee or Dry heaving for about a 1/2 hour or just not sleeping because my legs were jumping around like they were Michal Flatley in RiverDance. That's when I thought about writing this post to keep my mind off it ( working for now). I know this is a bit long winded, but remember, I haven't just been hooked for a couple years, it's been 13+ years (Yikes!) I will try to post everyday with progress and what to expect. What I do know is that I can do it, I kicked a 2 1/2 pack a day cigarette habit by just throwing them out the window on my wedding day! I also know that if I don't kick this insidious habit, I may not make it to my 11 year olds graduation from high school in four years.

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  1. Cleanmommie_16 7 years ago

    How are you feeling since writing 

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