It's been a busy day so far and I'm wiped out. Zachary has been full of energy and I just don't have enough to keep up! We've been all the way to Melbourne (20 miles one way) to take his Dad lunch and then over to the pet store to buy him some new fish because his favorite one died. He was quite upset about it. This time he picked out ghost catfish which are really neat because they are see-through! You can see all their organs and bones.

My mood has beenon the low side today, and I'm feeling like I'm fretting a whole lot over I don't know what. I'm just jittery and unfocused and I don't like that ~ especially when I have no specific reason to be. I've also got a muscular headache and I'm hoping it won't turn into a migraine because that's how they often start for me.

I miss being able to work. I know I'm not well enough to do so, but I miss interacting with other people and feeling good enough to make them laugh and feel good when they might have otherwise been having a bad day.

Tomorrow I go see my doctor about the snoring issue, but I'm not snoring so I don't know if I should cancel or go. I should probably cancel since I'm apparently no longer having problems with it. But there's concern that it might be sleep apnea as well, so maybe I should go… I'm so indecisive today.

Yesterday the weather turned really violent in the late afternoon. We had tornado warnings and wind gusts up to 86 mph ~ as strong as a hurricane! Luckily here we didn't get any hail or torrential rain. It seems so weird since we had such a sunny day turned into nightmarish weather so quickly.

I feel so off kilter today. Maybe it's having Zachary home when I'm used to the quiet and being alone here during most of the week. Maybe it's because I had such a restless night last night. Aaron said I was talking in my sleep most of the night…I wonder what about? I don't remember any of my dreams from it.

One good thing about Zach being home is that I won't sleep all day to avoid the loneliness, sadness and isolation I feel when here by myself. Of course he makes me crazy quite often, but it's still good to have him here. A change of pace may have been exactly what I needed.

I'm really aggravated about Easter this year. On Saturday Aaron will be filling in for someone else's shift and then on Sunday we have to go to his Mom's house to celebrate. I wouldn't go at all except his brothers are in town which is a fairly rare thing. One of them is coming all the way from West Virginia. So I have to shut my mouth and just grin and bear it even when I hate the whole thing. I'm an introvert most of the time and can only handle little bits of time with loud and boisterous people. It causes me a lot of stress. I'm sure there will be nasty comments made about us leaving "early". I might take a separate car just so I can escape. They're used to me making an quick exit anyhow and the only people they really want to see are Aaron and Zachary.

I guess that's it for now. If I have anything more to say I may do a second blog today. It just feels like it might be one of those days.