I woke up this morning feeling really anxious. I slept good and I don't remember having any bad dreams, I just woke up with my mind racing and breathing fast. I have been pushing myself the past couple of days with my driving. I have made myself go out and drive a couple of miles a day and that has sent my anxiety through the roof. I wonder if by pushing myself I have been having more anxiety than I'm aware of.
I got up and took a bath, that always seems to calm me down a little. I was fine until I got out of the bath, them the feelings started to hit me. I decided to take a xanax, which I never have to take in the morning, but I took one and now I feel a little calmer.
I haven't had problems for a very long time with anxiety at home. I used to have daily panic attacks at home and that caused me not to leave my home. Over the summer I got out and started riding my bike and walking which was a big step for me and now that I want to drive again, my anxiety is so high.
I have someone coming over today and I never get anxious about having someone come over to the house, but for some reason this morning I'm worried about it. I know that I will be ok, but it's getting the thought to catch up to my body letting it know that I will be ok.
All I can say is Anxiety is terrible, but i know the more you fight it the worse it gets or even avoiding it. I have been avoiding it way to long and now I'm having to face it more and it is coming back strong. However, I know I can make it through this, i just need to keep taking baby steps and it will someday leave me alone. Wouldn't that be great, no more panic attacks, no more avoiding anxiety situations.