Well its been a while sinc I have visited here and yeah a hell of alot has happned since my last few visits. I walked away from the meetings when I moved backed to Detroit.. I disease got to me because i was not gtting my daily medication…….. I changed my clean date . I was in the wrong place worng time and wrong spiritual condition on the day of the super bowl. I drank a few beers and then realized what I had done. I only made it back to the rooms by the grace of god and me wanting too sav my ass from me. I was full of anger and hatered for one person, and i almost reverted into old behaviors. Then and ony then did the program of na kick in…..
I have been back in the rooms of n a for just over 30 days now. I am claiming that as my clean day only because thats when I restarted my program. My new clean date is 05-06-09…. How ever have not had a drink or a drugsince the super bowl..
I am finding out that I had reservations about comming back to detroit. I thought I let them go before I left from Tampa. U found out that i didnt let all of them go………. All though it was a combination of things that led me to changing my clean date, I am back and am working the program to the best of my ablity now..
I have a new home group a new sponcer and i am trying to get back into service by becomming alt. GSR…… Service and making meetings really helped me stay clean in Tampa so yah if it aint broke who am I to try and fix things…
On a more personal note I have met someone here in the rooms of n a and yeah I have to becareful because I want it when and how I want it.. We are in the interview process of begining a realtionship…. I have to keep my motives in check because we both want a realtionship. I think and feel I'm ready for it but not quite sure she is, although she says she is……. At most I am building one hell of a friendship with her, for th first time I have told someone things I have NEVER told n e one. It feels sooooooooo damn good to beable to get honest with someone. More will be revealed on that matter as it unfolds