I don't know where to….I don't wanna write too long….why, why. do they tell me, unless everyone has always lied, that I'm a good looking guy supposedly(sorry if that sounds vain, and hell I'm not even sure it's absolutely true)…so if that's the case why I do continue to be such a failure with women….why…the 2-3 times In my life where I had anything remotely close to a serious relationship…why were they collasal failures….why did god or the Universe or the stars or whatever the f*&k decide I have to be so bad at this and have no choice but to accept being alone?…..why in the hell did she….Dianna(eh, doesn't matter she doesn't know of this site anyway or that I even battle depression, etc)…why did she have to be YET ANOTHER in a long line of….the Ones that Got Away that Never Were.????…) why was this curse thrust upon me???…Of never getting the girl, the times I did or came close resulting in failure….sorry, sound like feeling sorry for myself?….I apologize….I just don't what else it could be if not a curse at this point…..well yeah, I know it has to be me, right?…I know I know….but tired of beating myself up for it….that's gotten me nowhere….trying to be more loveing and accepting of myself ever since I prevailed throguh three year Stretch of Hell '09-'12….sorry if I'm rambling and if typos….I'm a mess at the moment and don't seem to care at the moment….and for the most part I have been more loving and accepting of myself….but today…it's been tough….by and large bcause I wasted the day I suppose……very lonely right now….Mom took off with brother-in-law and nephew to join rest of family in OZarks….So many people staying at my sister's lakehouse tonight that she told me sorry but no room for me….so….just have felt so alone all day….so alone….
Holiday weekends I remember always thinking are the times where I always feel the lonliest….But…was supposed to be able to handle that better now….but today….not doing well….and it's worrisome….bcause this among other things I fear are leading to the winds of severe depression swirling around me again….I'm worried…I'm worried….I battled so f*&king hard to get through '09-12…..I don't want to go down that road again….
Attraction does need good looks, but relationships need more than that, trust, vulnerability, openess, enthusiasum. Common interests are also very important and a willingness to participate in each other’s activities, when there isn’t a common interest. There needs to be gentleness and care to maintain a relationship. An untended relationship founders for lack of attention and nuturing. It also involves 2 willing souls.
It is the the crazy reaction where the couple is so preoccupied that they do not pay attention to anything until the madness wears off. That people mistake for love, but is not love. These kind fall apart because there is preoccupation, but not necessarily the commitment. Too often, these people want things all their way and cannot compromise.or sacrificefor the good of the relationship.
You need to evaluate which type you’ve been gettin involved in.
Wish you success, but not very far into the relationship you need to tell the truth about your depression, so she can evaluate if she can be there for that..
A woman that will stick with you through those have often been the guy’s lifesaver. You needto talk to fishman(john)or some other married guys with depression. Hugs Mary xx
Yes you are handsome. Your are luscious.