I had a very interesting and eye-opening experience tonight at my therapy appointment. I don't even know how to begin to explain it ~ but I feel a lot better really. We talked about finding myself again outside of all of my other responsibilities, but how to keep those relationships and such in good shape while I did it. We also did a lot of talking about my dreams lately and what they might have meant. I have recurring dreams that are a little different every time I have them, but they're still in the same place and time for me. I realized today that the particular place I associate with death or dying, but that it wasn't meant to be scary, it was meant to be a comfort to me.
My plans for tomorrow are to clean and do laundry, then to go see my regular doctor for my 6 month check-up. So I'm probably going to get yelled at for my weight, cholesterol levels, and who knows what else, lol. But after I get through with that I get to do something fun…I get to go look at bicycles for me. I can't lose the weight unless I get physical, and I love riding my bike. So hopefully tomorrow will be a lucky day for me and I will be bringing my new bike home. It's so cool, I'm actually very excited about it!
Whatever the case may be, I am feeling a lot better thanks to my session with Darcy. I look at myself and feel like a ball of yarn that's tangled up and knotted…and it's our job to untangle that string and set me right again. Strange analysis, but that's what came to mind.
I'm hoping tomorrow will be a good day. Maybe I'll find a little more motivation to get through the day and get my life back. That would be awesome.
Goodnight all; sweet dreams.