Aggravated and tired today. The heat, stress and money issues are getting to me. Time to take a deep breath I guess.

Aaron loved lunch, and it turned out to be really funny because while we were there, our best friends walked in. The funny part was that we were going to ask them if they wanted to meet up with us for lunch there, and they declined because they were "trying to save money", so we went ahead. Turns out that they came up for lunch there just to get him a Hooter's Gift Certificate forhis birthday, and he had ruined that too, lol (although unknowingly). He has gotten every birthday present we have wanted to buy him, but he bought them himself in the month before. GRRRRR!!! Such a pain in the butt! 😉

I about gave myself heat exhaustion yesterday when we went exercising. It was in the 90's and hazy and the sun bright with no clouds to block it. By the time I finished my 2 miles I knew I was going to be sick if I didn't drink a lot of water and get into some shade. So while Aaron and Michelle played tennis Zachary and I relaxed in one of the pavilions under some of the shade trees and cooled off. I just couldn't push myself any harder and I knew better.

We got home tired, sweaty and worn out. We showered, (I took a COLD one), and then chilled out before retiring to bed. We were all out quickly.

I had some of the WORST nightmares of my life last night. And the horrible thing about it was, my mind kept telling me it was a nightmare, it wasn't real ~ but every time I thought I had pulled myself out of it I turned out to be in another layer of it and was pulled right back in. I couldn't wake up! I even remember thinking I said out loud"Aaron please just hold me, I'm scared!", but he said I never madea sound last night. In the dream I was screaming and yelling and thrashing around, but for once my body disconnected from my mind. Figures, the one night it would have helped me to thrash around it didn't happen. I finally woke up at about 3 a.m. after finally managing to pull myself out of it, and got up. My heart was pounding in my chest and I was breathing hard; I went and checked on Zach, used the restroom, went upstairs and ate some cereal, all the while still dealing with the lump of fear that I wasn't able to swallow, and was scared to even come out on the porch in the moonlight. It was SO vivid, so intense, so real that I just couldn't shake it. It took me over an hour to settle back down so that I could sleep, and I slept on the couch because I was NOT going to go back to my bed where that horrendous nightmare happened. So needless to say, I got very poor sleep last night. 🙁

Still, the day had to go on. I woke up to Zach and Aaron's voices around 8 a.m. and got up and got my coffee and made my way to the porch. I actually called my Dad and talked to him for a little bit (I can manage half and hour now) and then packed up Zach's stuff to go stay at Grandma and Grandpa's tonight. We took him up and dropped him off and then ran to a couple of different stores. I needed another pair of shorts for exercising, and I bought one pair on sale, but found another pain similar to the ones I like so much ~ so I'm going to take the other pair back and get the money back from them. I have to go up that way on Monday anyhow, so it won't be too bad. $15.00 is still $15.00 at this point. That's money that could be in our savings account instead. This new way of handling money is SO hard for me, but I've got to buckle down and do it. So the extra pair of exercise shorts go back.

Now we're home and we have the house to ourselves for a little while before my Mom gets home. It's nap time for me. We're going to have a busy evening, Aaron just doesn't know it yet. Michelle, Mike and I are throwing a party for him at their place. 🙂 Hopefully we'll all have a good time.

I'm off to take my nap ~ I have a feeling it's going to be a really late night.