I dont want to sound… preachy? i guess is the best way to put it but here goes:

I think I did it. I mean I know you never really beat it. its still tehre for me every day i step on the scale and see the high number.

But you know I never got to the skiny point not even the flat tummy point because I had so much to lose and then when I tried to stop I was so depressed I gained back all the weight I lost. So starting from my highest weight I started a diet, a life long one. No more depriving myself of food. No more detoxs. No more naps so I dont eat. And no more nearly blacking out standing up.

The Carbohydrate Addicts diet is amazing. And its what helped me conquer it. I mean I finally just googled what diet will work for me instead of diets to lose 20lbs in a month.

I'm finally lsoing weight- adn consistently… 1-2lbs every week until I reach my goal weight (which is now healthier than my original100lbs goal) and I feel good.

My reason for posting this is, I've reached the point where the wat is mostly over, and only small nearly insignificant battles ensue. and only on off days. And I want any one else who may read this to know that if you're suffering from an eating disorder it can be conquered without rehab without therapy, if those didnt work for you then maybe you need someone to trust or someone whos been through it. and now I'm here. I know I'd just lie to a therapist, I hate being analyzed. Anyways if anyone wants to talk i'm not going to push you to be healthy or be all you should just stop. Cause I know its not easy. But I know there is a battle every meal you skip over whether or not you should skip it. One part of you knows you need to eat. But the part of you that always wins is the side who thinks it knows you need to lose weight.

Anyways I'm through it, and Its a giant weight off my shoulders. I feel.. Amazing even though i'm not at my goal weight yet, I know I will be and I get to eat 3 meals a day getting there =)