My days usually consist of me waking up around 10:30-11:30 in the morning, skipping breakfast, heading straight for my work out. After my work out is out of the way for the day, I usually take a shower and take care of my chores that I have to do around the house that day. My boyfriend is a Junior in college, I am unemployed. Putting me at home, alone, for about 6-7 hours a day.

You could pretty much say that my social life is non-existent outside of my relationship. A lot of that has to do with the fact that I just moved here last year and without a job or a car of my own, I really am not given an opportunity to go out and meet anyone new. However, even provided that opportunity.. I cannot say that I would really take full advantage. I live in constant fear of being judged. Judged by complete strangers, my friends, my family. Inside, I know that I am my own worst critic. I know that these negative thoughts are placed in my head by me and me alone. I am in a sense a bully to myself. Thinking myself incapable, undeserving and undesirable in any aspect. I have a hard time opening myself up to new people and therefore making new friends is virtually impossible.

I guess you could say, that's why I am here. I hope to connect with other people that are maybe going through similar situations. I hope to be there for others here that need it, to give advice or a shoulder to lean on. Maybe even to create a couple of friendships. Who knows, 🙂