Talk about mood swings. I'm sitting here crying for apparently no reason today. I'm notsure what's happening to me today, but it's no fun, that's for certain.
The good news is that Zachary is finally doing better. He's still got some symptoms but the high fever has stopped altogether. He's still running a low-grade one, but the tylenol knocks that out right away. 2nights now we'veslept almost straight through. We're both feeling better for it. The tiredness hasn't gone away, but at least it's tolerablenow.
I saw my therapist last night and Idon't feel like we accomplished much. We had to do the semi-annual goal paperwork that they require of the therapists to do with the patients. I almost just left because of a misunderstanding in what she was saying…lol. Not because I was angry or anything, but becauseI thought she was asking to catch up on her OWN paperwork, not mine.But anyhow I guess my goals are 1.) to get mood swings under control through medication/therapy 2.) to get anxiety under control through medicine/therapy3.) to deal with past traumatic experiences and deal with them in a healthy manner through therapy. Tada! Oh wait, number 4.) TO HOLD A JOB FOR ATLEAST6 MONTHS WITHOUT MISSING TIME OR HAVING TO TAKE LEAVE, QUIT,OR GET FIRED.
To that one, I wish myself good luck. I don't think that's going to happen anytime soon. I guess that's my long, long term goal in theend. To be able to live ahalfway normal life. But again, who defines whatnormal really is?
So I've finally gotten all of Zachary's medicines and mine too. Yaay! He's almost done withthe Tamiflu, now it'll be just the antibiotics. I hate seeing him sick from the medicine, but I can't get him to eat anything. I don't know what to do. I'm even bribing him with cookies and ice cream and none of it tastes good to him so nothing works. 🙁 Any ideas would be greatly helpful!!!
I don't have any motivation today yet I have to figure out how to dredge up enough to get dressed, go to the store, and then go to the gas station and the post office for stamps. Ugh. I don't know if I can do it… and first I have to stop crying!Stupid tears for no reason!
Sorry that I'm not doing my usual rounds today, but I just don't feel up to it. Sorry guys. :"-(