So this may seem completely odd for everyone, but lately not only are thoughts of past friends and things like that hurting me, but the fact that I will never be a good enough singer for it to matter to anyone.

Music has always been my life, but lately I honestly feel like it doesn’t matter. I cant sing as high as I used too, I cant hold out the long notes, I feel like I cant do anything

The one thing I have always wanted to do was be on American Idol or Nashville Star, but I now realize that that is a stupid dream, I’ll never be that good so I need to stop trying to get my hopes up like that…

One day maybe I can stop letting this bother me…but not today…