I have no one here that knows how to deal with anxiety. I started to get upset so I wanted to take a drive on the back roads for a few mins maybe stop the panic thats about to hit. But of course my parents don't understand me at all so they take my keys which freaks me out even more to think i'm a prisoner in my own fcking house. So here comes the panic attack I was hoping to avoid all thanks to my mom. SoI chunked my wallet and threw the gate opener and she grabs me and starts pushing me over shit which knocks over my new lamp that someone very special gave to me and broke the mofo and knocks over a full ashtray right in my fcking room. I told her if she didn't get the fck backI was gonna hit her. She said she was just trying to get me under control. ANYBODY W ANXIETY KNOWS THAT MAKES SHIT 100 TIMES WORSE. ThenI walked out the door and headed down the street on foot. Our neighbors were outside and I didn't want them to know what was going on soI just sat down in the road. Then she comes looking for me and basicallymakes shit worse. Then I get screamed at and pills forced down my throat that I dont wanna take. So i'm crying histerically and she starts screaming at me to calm down already so they can go to bed. This place is a fucking nightmare when it comes to anxiety and panic because no one I know around here has this shit and knows where I'm coming from. All they do is make things worse and I have no body and no where else to go. I just don't know what to do or who to go to. For anybody who read this far I really appreciate it.