So this Morning my Mum Woke me up to take Her to Work, needed the car so that I could have the car to go to my Working Interview. I was super tired & I dont have any minutes on my cell phone, so I worry about getting a panic attack and not being able to get a hold of someone bc I have no phone…. I try and get money from my Parent's, but Im 25 & my Mom shouldnt even be working full time, and when I Sleep all Day, that doesnt Help… It is super annoying not having a phone! Anyway's, I did go, I go there right on time, thank goodness bc I Thought I was gonna be late, was getting every light! I was there for an hour and a half, kinda following ppl around and greeting customer's. I am kinda shy, Idk if its from the anxiety or not, bc when I was younger my Parents say I would talk to anyone, and wasnt shy at all, no one in my Family would call me shy though lol. So i kinda just layed back a little & tried to Watch. So now I have to take a drug test and then They will call me and HOPEFULLY they will be offering me a job, but I have an interview @ a daycare on Thursday, its not alot of hours, I dont know if it could grow into more or not. It is something I'll probably ask & if I get offered both jobs the pay and the hours will Help me make a decision, just Hope I get one.! I need $ and I need to have some, start getting some type of independence. I left at about 1 and I had to pick up my Mum @ 2, so I had to sit in the car instead of driving all the way Home & then going back out that way to get my Mom.
So, Im tired, anxiety is okay.. Its always up and down, depending on what Im doing and where I am at. &if I start Thinking about it.
Whats my deal with guys?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I like bad boys, but I dont know why, if I meet a bad boy or talk to one that is into me, I get Butterflies and I like them, want to be with them. But I have a nice guy and He is sweet and I do like Him, but I never get those feelings like I do about the bad boys. I dont kno why, its really bothering me and getting to me. How many times does my Heart have to be broken for me to stop with those guys.? I really dont know what to do. Its bugging me bc I cant settle down and have the Life I want with that type of guy, but can I do it with a good guy if I dont get those Feelings?!?!?! Ugh! I know its not anxiety, but it's something, one of the many things that is on my mind all the time, and has to do with inability to make decisions…….!!!!!!!!
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