Went to my counselor today since she's an intern, she needs the experience. She's actually helped me a lot and I'm sad that tomorrow is her last day at my school. Although I've learned so much and she's helped me understand that I really want to study psycology. Just thought I let you know. Honestly I forgot where I was going with that… Listening to such an inspirational song. It's making me think. It's up in the music thingy. Look it up if you want to.
I want to talk to my mother about the boyfriend situation. It's affecting my grades now. Now your probably thinking, that's stupid you are affect your grades. But I'm not. My grades weren't the best when I was allowed to date my boyfriend but I was getting them up. He was giving me strength through everything, telling me to do my homework and everything. After that happened, everything just spiral crashed down. I don't care about school anymore. I don't care about my life anymore. My mother took away the one thing that I really cared about and she doesn't even care. I hurt some much inside right now and my mother couldn't care less. I want to tell her my feeling and the situation. Although I'm scared. My mother never listens to me. She always says that she will but she doesn't. She just gets mad and sends me away. It always just makes the whole situation worst. I don't want to make it worst than it already is. I just don't know what to do. I'm loosing a lot of sleep and then on the weekends I sleep the day away because I'm just so exhausted. I just want to be normal. I don't want to have this shit life that I have. Why can't I just have a normal family, with a mom and a dad? Why did I get the bad deal of cards? I just want everything to go back to the way it was when i was 5 and didn't care about anything. I want…. I just want to go to sleep.