Another day with no phone call from Dan. He told me yesterday he had poision oak too and he was tired of the itching and medication for it and I thought to myself if your tired of that try having your face swollen red bleeding puss coming out and nothing to help. He also mentioned he had been trying to make a little extra momey, so what ?, he's been doing some job and didn't even bother to tell me he had a little side job, as you all may no he lost his job over 6 monyths ago, but look who's still standing beside him, giving up getting to g out, except to dinner and the store, no more trips, dates, nothing, I'm stuck at home while he's running around doing what or whomever, I mean how do I no he's not scearching for someoone else? I no he's still online to dating sites and talking to someone, just not me. He hasn't been here since Monday 2 weeks ago, I believe but has strung me along daily telling me he's coming down, he also said he'd call me today, so far nothing. I wish I could not be here for him, when he decides to show the f*ck up, I wish I could treat him the way he's treating me! Come and go as I please, not call, not care, not be there for him, not listen to him, make him live worrying , make him loose control of when someone can come and go in his own residence, let alone the other unmentionable things he's does.

I'm starting to believe I must be one really shity person, everyone says bad kharma, you reep what you sew, well there you have it, right on.

I think I'll try not answering the phone when he calls, but that won't work because he could just be telling me I'm 30 minutes from home, that's what he calls it and let me tell you what, it ain't so! I've already been threatened with bodily harm if I let him keep this up, lol. My choices are none, really, if I stop seeing Dan, I'll be back to dating and God no's after this, no way! I'll just stick to this at least I no not to fall for him, hell how could I? He's told me all week I Love You, but I think he's only said that for his families benefit because he's always supposedly with them when he says it, having dinner, must be nice to get to go out for dinner everynight while your girlfriend sits here without, wondering where you are and why your not calling, asshole, jerk, sorry I'm hurt and angry right now.