So I have a bladder infection and I used to get them all the time but I hadn’t for the past year or more.  Woke up with one the other day and I downed a whole bunch of water and cranberry juice and I thought it was going away.  Yesterday morning I woke up with it and had to go to the doctor.  He gave me antibotics, but I am trying not to take them and heal the infection homeopathically so that my homeopathic remedy will still work.  I’m working with a homeopathic doctor and taking a whole bunch of pills.  It doesn’t seem to be going away.  I don’t want to take the antibotics and risk having it kill my immune system and get me sick (as it is my big obsession).

I’m on a whole bunch of meds and I’m currently weaning off the Paxil slowly and going up on the Anafrinal.  I’m freaking out because I’ve been on the Paxil for over 4 years and haven’t made any huge changes.  I feel like the anxiety is getting worse and I can’t go back to the way it was a couple months ago where I was throwing up every day and in complete and utter hell.  I don’t want to go back to the hospital and I feel like I am on my way there, no matter how hard I try to get a handle on this.  I see my psychologist 2x a week and I’m trying like hell to get this under control…I thought it was getting better, but now I feel like it’s getting worse again and that is freaking me out more than I can articulate.

Sorry, just had to get this out in the open…