I Will START OFF TELLING YOU I BELIEVE JESUS LOVES AND FORGIVES ALL AS FOR ME TO FORGIVE MY SELF FOR ALL I HAVE DONE OR MAY OF CAUSED I AM HAVING A HARD TIME YOU SEE I HAVE DONE SOMETHING IN MY PAST THAT I DON'T Even WANT TO IMAGINE THE RESULT I GUESS I AM TO EMBARRASSED AND ASHAMED TO ADMIT IT TO MY SELF BUT I ASK GOD PLEASE FOR GIVE ME FOR EVERYONE I MAY OF HURT IN MY LIFE AND ALSO FOR THE ONES I MIGHT OF HURT AND NOT EVEN KNOWN IT PLEASE IF ANYONE IS FEELING SUICIDAL PLEASE THINK OF THE ONES WHO LOVE YOU AND HOW MUCH YOU WILL HURT THEM IF YOU TAKE YOUR LIFE.HERE Is A BIBLE VERSE THAT IS FITING WITH ME I WILL NEVER ASK GOD TO CURE ME THIS SERVANT FELT THE SAME WAY AS ME.LUKE 7:7 THAT is why I Did Not Even CONSIDER Myself WORTHY to Come to you.But SAY the word And My SERVANT WILL BE HEALED.Don't Get me wrong I Do WANT To Be CURED I JUST FEEL UNWORTHY.I Remember Once LONG A GO I WAS DRINKING ALOT OF RED BULLS AND I STARTED GETTING PAIN WHEN I NUMBER 1 I Thought it was A URINARY INFECTION SO I GOT SOME AZO I THOUGHT IT WENT AWAY BOY WAS I MISTAKEN I STARTED GETTING PAINT IN THE FRONT AND BACK A Couple days Later I Could NOT Get Out OF Bed My Ex HAD to DRAG Me to The Hospital I WAS FREEZING AND MY FACE FELT LIKE IT WAS ON FIRE AND I FELT LIKE I WAS BEING SUFFOCATED THINK FOUND OUT I HAD A FEAVER OF 107 DEGREES I HAD A SUVER KIDNEY INFECTION OF COURSE I WAS ADMITTED GOD SAVED MY LIFE THAT DAY .THANK you GOD For that And YES I STILL DRINK ENERGY DRINKS NOTHING LIKE I USE TO .God Has been so Good to ME.THE REASON FOR THIS IS TO SHOW YOU GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS AND WHAT CAN HAPPEN IF YOU DRINK TO MUCH ENERGY DRINKS ALSO TO SHOW MY WEAKNESS.