Throughout my whole life my dad has been abusive, verbally and physically. One day it got so bad he wanted me to stop seeing my boyfriend because he was a “bad influence” which he was not and he wanted me to stop going anywhere besides school. I felt like a prisoner in my own house. He tells me to kill myself almost everyday and then when I actually attempt suicide he gets pissed at me and tells me im stupid. When he found out i was self harming he called me an idiot and smacked me… and when he found out i wasnt eating he tried to force food down my throat and it was horrible. Some days i wanna hit him back, my mom died in a car accident when i was little so my step mom lives with us now but she believes nothing I say… some days i just wanna attempt suicide again and succeed.