I havent told my mom about my depression. Im in highschool so i live in her house. I dont know how to tell her or if I even want to. Lately it feels like my depression is slipping away like its leaving. So maybe I dont even need to tell her. or maybe I should incase its not gone…it practically is never gone though. But she is not the most understanding type in the world. I mean she is but she isnt and i just cant find anyway to tell her. I mean my depression its getting better like kind of going away now so do i even need to tell her. I kind of woud rather tak to a therapist but only this one therapist she is now a famiy and child counser or watever but I used to go to her for a fu year after my grandma and my pawpaw died. She is the ONLY one i woud be willing to talk to but i dont think my mom coud afford her she is REALLY expensive. I don't know what to do and right now it doesnt realy feel like my depression is gone so maybe its just hiding like aways hiding. i just know that it definetley weighs me down alot and it doesnt help that i have only 3 realy good friends in life and 2 of them are my sisters and i still cant really tell any of them about my depression! talking to people on here helps most of the time but i would love to talk to a professional about this face to face but GOD ITS JUST NOT FAIR THAT ANYONE SHOULD EVER HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS! I CANT TAKE IT! and every day i'm on here is spent thinking god what if mom finds out about this site about my depression! I MEAN REALLY WHAT IN THE H**L AM i SUPPOSED TO DO HERE? I AM SO SAD ANGRY FRUSTRATED UGH!i cant take all this right now i just dont know how to deal with it i mean i have literally been praying that something sad happens in my life like something sad enough that i can just have my mom hold me and hug me while I cry. I pray that i have a big fight with a family member or my dad totally does something super mean or i get hurt really bad like maybe fall out of a tree or SOMETHING just so i can cry and she can tell me everything is alright im only a teenager i cant deal with this on my own anymore but at the same time i cannot tell her and there is just to much to worry about. to many ways i cant tel her. I could tell her if there was somewhere to run away too. thats what i need is to be able to just tell her all of it and if she reacts badly then i could just go somewhere for a little while like just a day and spend the night there and come back and see if everything is better then just go on with my life and be able to talk to her but i have no where to run away to and i dont know why i can manage to tell her but I just cant. how am i supposed to dea with this i have great friends on here but its just not enough i just want my mom 🙁
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