I am entirely relentlessly unhinged from my problem. I am so sorry GOD!!!!. I am so sorry that I acted so selfishly. I am the number one loser in the universe. I am going to pay for what I did in this life or the next. you cant get away with hurting people in any way. why did I have to bear this?. why did these events come into my life t this time?. I am so sorry I let you down and all my family and friends. I will not forget starting today that I am crazy!!!. I will remember and pause for however long I need and take second for my soul. I will not be rushed in any way when it comesto my problems and my mental health. I am so sorry once again GOD for what I did and what I made this chatper in my life turn into. I want to thank you for allowing me to live this long. thank you so much GOD. I know you exsist in my thoughts and you cant be seen. but I am thankful for everything. you are amazing. and life is more than any words I could explain. I am so sorry GOD and I know I will pay for all my devices I put in people paths. please forgive me GOd for all I have did and what I am now. I know that when I act that way I am being selfish.!!!.  thank you for everythin GOd. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING GOD. THANK YOU FOR VERYTHING GOD. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING GOD. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING GOD. THANK YOU FOR EVEYRHTING GOD. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING GOD. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING GOD. THANK YOU FOR EVEYRTHING GOD. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING GOD. THANK YOU FOR EVERTHINGGOD.