I am a failure. I don’t want to reach out to my friends and tell them I’m not doing well because I’m always not doing well. They push me away. They get overwhelmed with my self loathing. I never expected anyone to love me, because how can you love someone who hates themselves?

i don’t wanna do this anymore. You can’t stop me. You don’t have any of my contact information or know me in real life. I can just disappear and maybe people will care, but I’m honestly a selfish person and I want to stop it all. I don’t belong here.

i don’t deserve love. I’m such a crappy person, I fail at everything, I’m never going to make it. I find it impossible that anyone could ever love me.

they all say they’ll never leave you. The they do anyway. Don’t even tell you why. Maybe it’s you. Maybe you’re such a piece of garbage, it’s no wonder no one will ever love you.

i am unlovable. Even the demons hate me. Maybe that’s why they torture me so much.

im feeling hollow now, but that’s not a surprise. That’s how most days are. I don’t even deserve to have a better life, so why am I complaining?

6 Comments
  1. deadsoulx 2 months ago

    listen up mate – there are times when we feel like “nah i am worthless and shit” but trust me you are worthy and you deserve so much more!! maybe you ain’t realizing it now , but one day you will!!
    its just in your mind that “you don’t deserve stuffs” but in reality you actually do – but just the fact that you ain’t accepting it!!
    start looking at the brighter side ALWAYS. things will become better , i swear it will!!
    have hope and faith!!
    love ya xx <3

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      aquazium 2 months ago

      I hope that someday I will love myself. I guess I should work harder to ignore the voices in my brain… another reason I hate myself.

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  2. archy 2 months ago

    Hey, why saying you don’t deserve love, u do deserve love, everyone here deserves love. Be strong, I feel bad about myself too, I think myself as unlovable too, but stay strong, u care about having a better life, make it come true!!!!

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  3. jason01 2 months ago

    “You don’t have any of my contact information”- Aquazium
    Ha you sure about that?- Jason
    You are loved girl and you are definitely are worth so much even if you don’t realize it yet. Love is in your future and great things are on the horizon, just stick with it and you know i’m always going to be here for you so <3

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      aquazium 2 months ago

      Why are you making me cry… I guess you do have some of my contact information, fine. But you and Brokendoll17 are the only people who have it, no one else on this site does. Thanks for being here for me and believing in me:) I guess maybe someday something good will happen to me. Maybe.

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