I am a failure. I don’t want to reach out to my friends and tell them I’m not doing well because I’m always not doing well. They push me away. They get overwhelmed with my self loathing. I never expected anyone to love me, because how can you love someone who hates themselves?
i don’t wanna do this anymore. You can’t stop me. You don’t have any of my contact information or know me in real life. I can just disappear and maybe people will care, but I’m honestly a selfish person and I want to stop it all. I don’t belong here.
i don’t deserve love. I’m such a crappy person, I fail at everything, I’m never going to make it. I find it impossible that anyone could ever love me.
they all say they’ll never leave you. The they do anyway. Don’t even tell you why. Maybe it’s you. Maybe you’re such a piece of garbage, it’s no wonder no one will ever love you.
i am unlovable. Even the demons hate me. Maybe that’s why they torture me so much.
im feeling hollow now, but that’s not a surprise. That’s how most days are. I don’t even deserve to have a better life, so why am I complaining?