This is my story.
I am currently 20, about to be 21 in December.
I drink, I smoke, I cry, I go to work, I do my school work, then I cry again.
I go through waves of depression. It started when I was 14, and, honestly, looking back on what happened, I can say that I have a pretty sad story. But, I get better and my life started to click it felt like and I had been doing so well. I wasn’t depressed all of the time and my anxiety wasn’t running my life.
And then I got into a bad situation again.
And this time I lost everything.
I lost my boyfriend. I lost my friends. I lost my motivation to go to work. I felt confused about what I wanted to do with my life. I felt confused about everything. I don\’t understand people. I don\’t know how to act anymore. I hate myself most of the time.
I was doing so well and then life just threw me back down, way farther than I have been in a while.
I didn’t think this was supposed to happen once I got older…and I don\’t know why this happens at all. I’ve never been a bad person. Don’t I deserve happiness??