Hi. I don’t understand how i am feeling these days. I am experiencing low moments oftenly. I would get bored sometimes and nothing makes me feel entertained. I would feel lonely or useless during this times. Sometimes i would just want someine to talk to . I would look at my contact list and when i see all the people i talk to are not close enough to me for me to expose my vulnerable side to them i would feel even low.
At times i would have this sudden urge to do something, i don’t what tho. This would prompt me to look for sites on how to make money and what nots. And nope its not financial stress, i just feel i want to be useful.
Nowadays i am so bothered about being alone. I don’t get it. I once was okay being alone once, so why not now? I feel everyone around me is fake except my family. I don’t like crowds yet i don’t feel like being alone either.
What is this that i feel like my heart is pushing me towards. This nugging feeling won’t just go away. I badly want to do something yet i don’t know what it is.
I feel like i wish i could do something that would make me feel accomplished.