Hey it's me whinny woman. I have had an ok day except the nawing pain of my husband forgetting my birthday ment anything to me. He has begged for forgiveness and has done all kinds of things to try to make up for his screw up yesterday and I guess I should be more forgiving  but I can't stop myself from still feeling very hurt. I don't know how to forgive him for something that still has a sting to it. I still can't stop crying and I am not sure why I feel so strongly about this. Perhaps its because I was not really looking forward to turning 36. Perhaps it because the day started bad and I was looking for my knight in shining armor to rescue me from the terrible day and make it better. He let me down and I fell to the ground with a painful thud. I felt and still feel like I mean nothing to him or the family. That all that I do just goes unnoticed and now so have I. He has reminded me of all of the stuff he has done for me like that should make me feel better. Like I should be grateful that this is just one mess up out of many things. The little things matter to me. They always have and that's what eating me up. He didn't even know what kind of cake I like. After 8 years of marriage and 10 year together you don't know what cake I like?!? How many of you out there know what color your partner's eyes are? or what their favorite color is? Or what cake they like? How long does it take to get that information? How long does it take to figure out what the person you suppositly love wants? likes? feels? knows what important to them? How long? Am I wrong? Am I just overly sensitive? I really want to know. I don't knlow what to or how to react right now. I am so hurt and can't stop crying that I can't forgive him until I do. What is wrong with me?

Lamia