That sounds really hard. A whole new hurdle to overcome. You’ll be stronger than others if you fight it though. You’re trying to jump to the same height as others from a hole in the ground. If you reach that height, you’ve actually jumped further than people without diabetes. Talk to your doctor about resources. People don’t need to know that you don’t trust, but people survive with diabetes. Our dad has it, and he’s still here and just fine. Don’t do it alone. Nothing is meant to do alone. Humans are pack animals for a reason. We thrive off of connection, and we cannot be true loners. You physically require others as a human to survive. Find those people, your doctor should have some resources for you. Keep fighting. We wish you luck.