No farewell words were spoken
No real time to say "goodbye"
you were gone before I knew It.
and only god knows why.

My heart still Aches with sanness,
and secret tears still flow.
What it meant to love you-
NO ONE can ever know.

But now I know you want me
to mourn for you no more;
to remember all the happy times,
life still has much in store.

Since you'll never be forgotten.
I pledge to you today-
Ahollowed place within my heart
is where you'll always stay.

No I did not right this myself I read it and it
hit me that this is how I feel and that it is time
to not let anyone make me feel bad for my past
I have wished for the past 5 almost 6 years that
I was a better mother to mason but I can not go back
in time to be the mother that I know I am today I am a good
mother now and I am sure that mason can look down and
see that I am a good mother to his brothers and sister and
now thats all that matters I beleave that mason knows that I loved
him  the best I knew how at the time I will always have to live
with the fact that I was not what I am today FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE
so there is know need to
shove that in my face any longer I loved my son and I always will
I am a good mother and I know I am and thats all that matters
And to everyone that takes the time to read this Thank You
and always remember to tell your kids and loved ones
you love them often you never know when you
wont be able to again
I DON'T WANT ANY SYMPATHY I NEED NONE I UNDERSTAND THAT THERE IS A REASON WHY THIS HAPPEN PLEASE DONT FEEL SORRY FOR ME JUST DONT MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES I DID LOVE YOUR KID DONT DO DRUGS THEY FUCK YOUR WORLD UP
AND DONT LET ANYONE GET YOU DOWN