So, i have only one question: Is there any place for OCD sufferers to live if they failed therapy?

I have this s*it for about 20 years, 10 years on medication now and years of therapy.

I have a very supportive family, but i’ve ruined their lives and i am too old to rely on them. To be honest, i’d kill myself but i can not because they would blame themselves so i am searching for a place to live. I don’t want to make them see how im ruining my life with this and i will not be able to handle if something bad happens because of my thoughts. I am not able to face my my fears at a point. So…does anyone knows a place for failed patients?

Thx in advance!