I haven’t been on here in quite some time.  The past 3-4 months I’ve been reminded of what a hell it is living with this disorder.  I guess I’m just looking for support so that I don’t feel so alone going through this.   I am at a much different place in life now and give all glory and thanks to God for His help in all of this.   The struggle is real though as you all know who struggle with OCD.  Ruminating, wanting to confess and reassurance seeking…all the fun stuff.  But I’m trying to do it differently now and not confess and seek reassurance and I think that is what makes me feel so isolated.  It’s all in my mind alone but I know I’m not alone, God is with me and will help me through it.  This website has changed a lot since I was last on here.  Seeing some of my old blogs remind me of where I have came from.  Does anyone hope that someday they will just overcome OCD and not have to deal with it anymore?  I know, dumb question and just wishful thinking.  I would probably stop typing but I guess I have to fill up 300 words now.  Would like to have some input and see how you all are doing.  Funny thing is…I’m a mental health counselor.  I work with people all the time and try to help them overcome their mental illness but it seems so hard when it happens to yourself.  I guess OCD has been a blessing and a curse.  A blessing in that it’s helped to to really analyze people’s problems and help them through their struggles.  A curse in that….well….you know if you struggle with OCD.I hope and pray you are all doing well in your journey.