I haven’t been able to sleep for the past several weeks. I didn’t mind it at first but now it’s driving me insane. I recently quit a very toxic job and I’ve been applying to others but to no avail. As usual nothing works out. I ended one “friendship” weeks ago because of how rude the person was. Every summer is the same. As the weather gets warmer and the days get longer and more people are outside I become more depressed. Suicidal ideation is starting to kick in again. I have no friends. I’ve given up after constantly trying and failing. No one puts forth any effort so I’m done. I don’t connect with anyone. I don’t relate to anyone. A part of me wishes I was dead. I have no life. I’ve said before that my parents are the only reason I haven’t killed myself but I don’t think I can go on much longer.