Um hello there to those who reading this. My name is Travis. I don\’t want to write about except for the obvious but I just want to write introduction about myself. I live with a lot of animals and my brother. He has been my best friend and often times a punching bag for my anxiety. My mother is still around and I talk to her about my problems a lot of the time. Kinda happy I can. I am a man of not much friends, that is okay. I think I still need to learn to get friends, if that makes any sense.
I am a modest person, middle class work who considers himself a gypsy nerd. Don’t have a classification to call myself something. I just feel like I am a little bit of everything. I mean I love MMA fighting and collecting VHS tapes and stuff animals so I don’t know what I am under. Kinda like being a gypsy nerd. That part of my life feels fantastic. Feels like I have my own connection in the word.
My anxiety makes me feel weak to the people around me. Often times makes me feel like i am not nothing but inferior I guess around others. I wish knew what started this. I was never like this when i was younger. My mom told me that I was a fearless person. That I had this easy flowing strength. But somewhere in my adulthood, anxiety took over. I wish I had some idea about this.
I really want someone to b.s with about this. Spit ball ideas and don’t feel alone in this situation. I don’t even know if that would help.
Guess there is a fear if I don’t deal with this soon. I will be alone. I will be some wondering soul of sorts. I don’t know if i can deal with that issue. I do have a fear of being alone. I can’t be alone. Or I can and I can’t. It depends on the circumstance.
I will stop here. I just wanted to say something. Feel better saying something about me. Might be ugly how I explain things. I just wanted to get something down.