bring me peace of mind and soul, bring my heart back together, all of the shattered pieces. cage this evil within me and forsake it so that it may die and leave me be. take me from the steps of ruin and suffering. give me a life that i am able to live for the one i live now is torture. happyness is not a word i know the meaning of. what does it mean and where do i find myself i this the hours of my need. where shall i go to brake the schackles of depression bound to my hands and feet. which blacksmith can tear them off. which healer can save me. i lived an honest life and an open one. did no wrong to others. gave my enemies water for their thirst and bread for their hunger and yet i am cursed with this disease that ravages my mind and tears down my being. left to fend for myself day by day i feel i am all to weak and see no point in life, yet i still breathe,why? is there a reason for this torment. like prometheus i am punished for trying to do good, yes i am not without fault and not without evil deeds but does deeds done in anger and protection mean i am worthless and must be left to die…. i do not know all i know my days are darker and my soul lost all i crave is an instrument to end my life yet i am to much a coward to attempt suicide for a thirteenth time..what am i to do with all this what am i to say what am i to feel anymore but pain suffering and selfhatred ..so i ask bring me peace so i may once again be me or bring me eternal peace and never again shall i bother anyone on this planet
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Life?
Greenland1, , Depression, Personality Disorder, Sex Therapy, 1
i fucking hate people i dont want to live anymore i hate some people cant see the world cant...
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My sappiest pile of crap
MalKiE_D, , Depression, Depression, Grief, 0
epitaph in binary Current mood: moody Category: as i lay here sore and sick… do you like that?...
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SUICIDE
JA, , Depression, Anger, Depression, Suicide, Therapist, Therapy, 5
interersting morning…. on the way to work I wittnessed a suicide attempt. This man was sitting on a pillar...
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Through the Floor Again
sadviolinist, , Depression, Anger, Child, Sleep Disorders, 0
It's been a very busy weekend for me. Tonight I'm feeling it. I'm very down and just want to...
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Steam-of-conciousness (Part 4–conclusion)Dad, the girl, school, and on Being Mr. Almost
gomizzou, , Depression, Career, Depression, Questions, Relationships, 0
(note: this is the 4th in a series of blogs I've written today. Feel free to read the other...
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Broken Inside
sadviolinist, , Depression, Anger, Anxiety, Child, Therapy, 2
Very sad today. My heart has been hurting for awhile now, but I've kept quiet about it. But last...
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Fitness for work
uberbobolink, , Depression, Career, Child, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, Depression, Domestic Abuse, Parenting, Questions, Religion, Sex Therapy, Sexual Abuse, Sleep Disorders, Stress, Suicide, Therapist, 0
On Sunday morning I rang up my line manager and told him that I was fit for work again...
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I genuinely need your help…
VerySolitary, , Depression, Anxiety, Career, Depression, Grief, Medication, OCD, Parenting, Relationships, Suicide, 1
This is long and somewhat drawn out. I apologize, but you’re all I have left to ask for help....
peace i cant remeber the last time that was radagast and darkknight i hate it aswell its not like we asked for this illness did we?