It seems like I am always having to explain myself to ppl. I hate that. Especially to people who already know me. There are less than a handful of people who know “the real me”. I put that in quotes because I don't really know who the real me is yet… but by saying that I mean the anxious, scares, depressed person I am now. Anyways I was talking to one of my friends and he went on and decided to dissect our whole conversation. It's like you know what i meant why the fuck are you acting this way with me when I'm trying to vent a lil. When I vent I get a lil all over the place. He knows this and have had big conversations about it. Just let me get all the shit out and I'll start to.make more sense once I let out all that verbal diarrhea. He has a tendency to do this to other people. He did do it to me before and I had to call him out on it. He was being mean and I had to say something. We had words and then worked it out. I explained to him my way of processing things. He has things too. And I understand and just listen. He's been good ever since. Maybe he was off today. It's understandable. We both have some of the same issues. He's been an awesome friend but has this abrasive way about him sometimes. That said he is also a very loving person. We have real conversations and can tell each other how it is without getting hurt. Ok so we do but can forgive and move past that. I dont have an one else I can do that with. He's been a big support system and vice versa. Anyways. So I wasn't in the mood for this from him. Again we had a big discussion about it and now we are fine. There is a song that touches on this subject and how sometimes we just need to be understood. Hence my username. It's an awesome song by an awesome band who happens to be one of my faves. Enjoy….
Depeche Mode”Shake The Disease” I'm not going down on my kneesBegging you to adore meCan't you see it's miseryAnd torture for meWhen I'm misunderstoodTry as hard as you canI've tried as hard as I couldTo make you seeHow important it is for meHere is a pleaFrom my heart to youNobody knows meAs well as you doYou know how hard it is for meTo shake the diseaseThat takes hold of my tongueIn situations like theseUnderstand meSome people have to bePermanently togetherLovers devotedTo each other foreverNow I've got things to doAnd I've said beforeThat I know you have tooWhen I'm not thereIn spirit I'll be thereHere is a pleaFrom my heart to youNobody knows meAs well as you doYou know how hard it is for meTo shake the diseaseThat takes hold of my tongueIn situations like theseUnderstand me