It’s not fair. It’s not fair. It’s not fucking fair. I wish he would stay out of my life, I want to go away, I want to run away, I want to stick a gun down my throat, I want to pull the trigger and never return. I hate my Dad. He’s so controlling and pissy all the time just because I’m a fucking retard who is STRUGGLING and he isn’t trying to SUPPORT me. He just wants me to get the fucking work done, all he wants me to do is be smart. It’s not fucking fair… If only he understood how painful it was, how much I need that damn thing… All my friends know how suicidal I am… I just wish he would stop being just a bitch. He thinks he’s so in control of my life that I’m on the brink of destroying the clean streak… I’ve been self-harm-free for around a year, and then he runs in and ruins my life…