JUST A FAIR WARING THAT THIS IS PRETTY MUCH A DAIRY ENTRY ABOUT MY FEELINGS AND NOT A STORY

I am a lesbian and I am lonely. I want a friend that I can call and text whenever that I know will be there for me and that they care. I have been having some really bad friendships and surrounding myself with people who don’t love me. I have one “friend” who is altheltic and I really try to be a good friend but she keeps leaving me to hang out with her teams. My only other friendship was with someone who was gay and I would have told him that I am gay but then I caught him being racist and a douchbag so i ended that friendship. I just don’t understand why I am so unlikeable. I am a straight A student who plays an instrument and loves dancing and romcoms.

Because of my lack of friends I spend most of my time by myself in my room. My mom thinks its werid and I hate being alone but I am the only one that I know won’t tell everyone that I am gay because I am not ready for that.

In seventh grade I was bullied pretty badly and I was very very upet and it made me sarcastic and unaproachable and I don’tknow what to do. I am not the nicest girl in the world but I am still a person and I just want another person who is willing to talk to me and who I can tell my secrets to and talk about who my crush is. All of the other girls in my school have best friends or at the least someone that they can trust.

Even though I still want someone to be there for me I have a pretty good idea of who I am. I am a werido that loves to dance and play in the band.