I felt so lonely tonight. I ran to Grindr. It’s not going to find me happiness. I went to Jackd. It’s not going to find me happiness. I even went to Craigslist. It won’t find me happiness. I’m writing this in tears because all I want is to feel loved. Everyone that ever loved me, hurt me. I have to hide my pain every minute of the day because of the shame of what I went through. I’m glad I found this, because I am running out of options. My heart hurts. I wish I could change a lot, but I can’t. I have been rejected by so many people it is not even funny anymore. I am really hoping to find support here, this is my last resort.