I have been with this guy for 6 years. He’s terrible to me. I’ve never cheated on him or been unfaithful but I can’t say the same about him. He’s always flirted with women in my face or behind my back doesn’t matter to him. When he went away to school for three years, he kept a seperate life with his classmates and friends and I was always excluded. His female friends and I could never be friends because he would have inappropriate relationships with them and they could never even look me in the face or talk to me when they would see me.
He comes home from school and talks about getting married…..
I just found out 3 weeks ago that he had Facebook and that he had it for years. The pics. and emails on there broke my heart. Of course he always promises to change and be a better partner….
Last night, I was sick but I went with him to a fundraiser for breast cancer awareness, he started flirting with his childhood friend’s new girlfriend and then in my face, he tells these guys that now that he’s a doctor he’s going to get "mad p***y". Argh!!!
I KNOW that he is awful, and the truth is that I know I can do better. However, as awful as he is to me, I am compelled to stay with him. A friend of mine thinks that this may be because my father left when I was a child and that I’m trying to prevent the same thing from happening again…
I suffer because I WANT to leave the relationship but am helpless to do so…even though I obsess about how awful and hurtful he is to me. I just don’t understand how I can be with someone who is so awful 🙁 The worst part is I don’t think I really love him…how could I love someone like that? I just want to walk away….