So we’re spending the night with him tonight. Hoping that things will finally take a turn for the better. We still haven’t had that talk yet, but I’m hopeful that tonight will finally put an end to all of that. He’s asked me several times what I want for Christmas, and all in all it has been a pretty good day, relationship wise. I really want things to work with him because I see the best of myself come out when I’m with him. Of course we have our arguments from time to time, but he’s a really good man and he’s an excellent father to my son. And that last part means more to me than anything else because my sons biological father is really a piece of sh*t. This man I’m currently debating over has done more for my son in the year he has known him than his biological father has done his whole life. And that singular fact makes it all the more important for me that this work. My son loves him so much and looks up to him like he was already part of our family. I’m hoping and praying that sometime soon, in the near future, he becomes part of our family for real and forever. It’s funny, because as we sit here and watch “The Blacklist” he’s giggling because I have this clay mask on and he thinks I look like the creature from the black lagoon or something. But the fact that I’m comfortable enough around him to do something that I would normally hide away from the world just makes me feel like it is the right call, he is the right person for us. I know he loves us, more than anybody else ever has, and we love him and his son just the same. Here’s to a merry Christmas and a great New Year, and here’s hoping that we finally get to spend it like a real family: together with the people we love.