I am a transgender female that didn’t transition until I was 53. I’m now 61. My husband passed away before I fully transitioned 11 years ago. He was very supportive.

I was diagnosed as BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) two years ago. I’ve been going to therapy and been given tools to help manage my emotions and reactions to them. I also have regular meds that also help. It’s a daily struggle.

For the past six years I’ve had struggles with my health. I have had several heart attacks but with meds I’m fine. I had spinal surgery 3 years ago for correcting broken bones and severe disc displacement inflicted by being a gang of bullies in school for being a sissy f@g. The surgery helped a great deal and finally out of severe pain. I was doing great health wise until a year ago. I couldn’t get thru pride fest without continual collapsing. Now I am bleeding somewhere in my urinary tract. I’m having testing done but I’m scared out of my mind as to what they’ll find, or worse yet, not find out what’s wrong.

I have an adult daughter from my first marriage. She still calls me dad and I’m fine with it. She and her three kids are very supportive. My son in law is a different story. He isn’t mean but he won’t acknowledge my existence.

My daughter’s mom passed away in December so as much as I want to give up but I can’t. I’m fighting to stay alive for her. I lost my mom in 2012, then my husband in 2014, and my dad in 2015. It took me a lot of therapy to deal with losing the ones I love dearly back to back. I don’t want to do that with my daughter.

I didn’t transition until after both parents passed because my mom hated my effeminate mannerisms. After I transitioned I lost a lot of family and friends but I’ll never go back.

I’ve wanted to start dating again but a trans woman in her 60’s is impossible. Hookups are easy there are chasers everywhere. But to have a meaningful relationship is too difficult to find. And now with what’s going on with my health really puts that out the window.